On June 23, when Indian ultrarunner Meenal Kotak set a new national mark of 680.2249 kilometres covered in the six day-race category of the Six Days in the Dome event in Milwaukee, USA, it was her best performance yet since an injury saw her stay off running for over eight months in 2019.
That year, Meenal was diagnosed with a painful case of slip disc in the L4 and L5 vertebrae and advised bed rest. There was no running. She remained indoors, life largely limited to her room and bed. It was a testing period. Besides the lack of physical activity, her mind went for a toss. Runners, especially ultrarunners, are known to pile on miles in training. The regular training helps them stay positive; in a high-endorphin, motivated zone. When such levels of physical activity get suddenly pulled off, the mind may progressively slip into depression. Meenal had cause for worry. Based on her prior performance in the ultramarathon, the Athletics Federation of India (AFI) had drafted her into the Indian team due to attend the 2019 24-hour world championship. That wouldn’t be possible now. Unable to run thanks to her slip disc problem, she grew acutely aware of the competition in the sport and the blunt truth that there is no shortage of new talent. No one is missed for long if they drop off the radar. Somebody else comes along and fills the vacancy. That is how it should be in the best interests of a team but when viewed from the individual runner’s perspective, it is precious chance missed. Meenal’s mind kept generating questions. Why am I injured? Why are things going well for others but not for me? When will AFI give me another chance? – she sank into a mental morass thinking so.
To compound matters, that known side effect of physical inactivity and mental depression manifested – she started to gain weight. “ My pacifier in this period was food. I ate. It was getting up, eating and taking medicines – that was my life,’’ she said. A major relief was the support she got from her husband, Sachin. True, the sight of others leaving for work and getting on with life was a downer. But the fact that she had somebody to talk to, meant she didn’t need to access any external assistance to tackle her depression. Then a leveller of sorts happened. By the first quarter of 2020, COVID-19 started to grow in India. Along with the pandemic, came lockdown. It dispatched everyone indoors, sporting activity came to a grinding halt worldwide and events were cancelled. Talking to this blog in early July, 2024, Meenal provided an honest overview of her bed-ridden predicament in times of pandemic. As lockdown took hold, suddenly, after months of finding herself inactive at home and left out from the active lifestyle-community, she felt a distinction crushed as people everywhere hunkered indoors. Everybody was in the same boat. Strangely, it was around this period when a whole world was hurting that Meenal began to heal.
Her residential complex in Gurgaon – where she had moved to from Vasant Kunj in neighbouring Delhi – hosted a long loop of close to two kilometres within its premises. Once she resumed walking indoors, she took the stairs down from her flat and walked longer distances on that loop. Sachin pitched in to help. With a view to encourage her on the comeback trail, he had taken to running during the time she was bed ridden and now with him for company, Meenal slowly worked her way up from running one kilometre to covering five kilometres. “ It took me a month to accomplish this,’’ she said. The loop within her residential complex was a genuine blessing to facilitate this progression. It meant she could run at night as well, something difficult for a woman to do in Delhi. For many people, five kilometres run in a day would seem enough. Not when you are a national level ultrarunner trying to return to where one was before slip disc felled the athlete. Meenal persevered. In all, she estimates, she would have taken 14-15 months to reach close to her old levels of mileage in training. And it wasn’t a simple reset; it was a reset with significant changes.
Prior to her injury, Meenal’s idea of training for the ultramarathon had focused mainly on accumulating high mileage. She used to run 600 to 650 kilometres every month and her weekend training included long runs of eight hours and 12 hours. It was just running and running. Post injury, on the comeback trail, that homogeneity transformed to a blend of strength training, stretching and training runs. Of these, strength training became the most important new ingredient as regards the body. She now works out with weights; her strength training session lasts one hour and is repeated thrice a week. Alongside, she settled for a slightly reduced mileage in her training runs. Her current monthly mileage is around 580 kilometres and her long runs range from six hours to eight hours. But the most significant tweak lay elsewhere; it was a tweak in her approach to races.
In April 2022 she registered for her first event in many months – a 12 hour-race in Bengaluru. She completed the race covering 90 plus kilometres in the stipulated time. What stayed in mind was the lightness of being she felt. “ When you enter an event after three years, the pressure is off. Unlike before when I was a known competitor tracked for my performance, thanks to the three year-gap, people seemed to have forgotten about me. It was good to have no pressure. That was a real upside. The downside was that my old friends in running had graduated to a different league and I didn’t know anyone around to say hello to,’’ Meenal said, adding, “ it was a good learning – change is the only constant in life. Records and achievements are meant to be broken.’’ Somewhere in that mix of altered scenario and the maturity of an older self, she realized that one better run for oneself rather than any glory. Even if there is some greater glory to chase, for the athlete, focus has to be on giving one’s best and forgiving oneself if things go wrong. It makes no sense to groom setbacks into dark moods that are difficult to climb out of. Roughly two years later, that realization would prove very useful in connection with her participation in events in Taiwan and Australia.
Meanwhile in 2022, in order to set a steady and systematic journey to her old endurance levels, she didn’t immediately vault from the 12 hour-race at Bengaluru to a 24-hour one. Instead, she did in all, three 12 hour-races that year to establish a solid foundation. In 2023 she participated in the Tuffman 24-hour race in Chandigarh and set a new personal best (PB) of 187 kilometres covered, an improvement over her earlier PB of 175 kilometres. Meenal is not a fast runner. Her forte is endurance; sustaining an effort for a longer period of time. And in this category, she had known for a while that her heart was in attempting multi-day events. It meant attempting runs of duration exceeding 48 hours, which was the maximum she had done till then. With this in mind, Meenal looked overseas for good opportunities and came across the event titled Six Days in the Dome in Milwaukee, USA. It had a 72-hour race, which although not well recognized as race-duration in the multi-day running fraternity was still a sensible bridge for her between the 48 hours she was familiar with and Milwaukee’s flagship six-day event, which she hoped to try at some point. She registered for the race. Sachin joined her as support crew (he does so for most of her races and Meenal finds the arrangement a big morale booster). The race turned out to be good for Meenal; in the stipulated 72 hours, she covered 379 kilometres. “ I really enjoyed those three days. It motivated me to explore deeper, the multi-day format,’’ Meenal said.
Likely taking note of her performance at Chandigarh and Milwaukee, the AFI included her in the Indian team for the 2023 IAU 24H World Championships and the 2024 IAU 24H Asia-Oceania Championships. Man proposes, God disposes. While training for the world championship (it was to take place in Taipei in December 2023), she sensed a niggle in her back. The old slip disc problem, although improved, hadn’t totally disappeared. She pulled out of the event in October. Under normal circumstances such withdrawal would demoralise any athlete. It may spark brooding and visitations to the dark zone in the head. But the post injury, new Meenal took it philosophically. She took the next 2-3 months, easy. From January 2024, she started her training for the six day-race in Milwaukee, scheduled for June. It was around this time that she got the call from AFI seeking her participation in the IAU 24H Asia-Oceania Championships. She had to accept the offer but there was a challenge. In her new cycle of training with Milwaukee in mind, until March 2024, Meenal hadn’t done a 12 hour-run, often considered vital to get ready for a 24 hour-race. She located two 12 hour-events – in Ahmedabad and Delhi – and participated in them to reacquaint herself with the experience and understand where she stood. “ I knew thereafter that I was good for 12 hours. But I couldn’t guarantee how things would be beyond that,’’ Meenal said. The Asia-Oceania championships in Australia didn’t play out well for Meenal. “ I was hoping to cover 185-190 kilometres. But I ended up with 168 kilometres. It wasn’t my day,’’ she said. Importantly, she didn’t let the reversal in fortunes, lead her into a pit of despair. She reverted her focus to the upcoming six day-race in Milwaukee.
June 2024; the race in Milwaukee featured several strong runners. “ I didn’t look at the entry list, which was displayed there. I didn’t want any pressure on myself,’’ Meenal said. The event in the US was set within an indoor stadium that held an ice-skating rink. It was therefore cold; a constant low temperature. Indoor stadium meant, there was no sunlight. On the other hand, precisely because of the synthetic setting, it was a controlled ambiance. The first day of the race went off well for Meenal. In line with her expectations, the second and third days proved to be tough. She neither ran nor slept properly. On the fourth day, things began to look up. On that day, the fifth and the sixth, she had her first taste of hallucination. There was a display board in the stadium featuring a woman’s image on it. Meenal felt the woman touch her on her shoulder, running with her and conversing with her. Some others around had more serious hallucinatory issues. “ One runner started hallucinating about a murder,’’ she said. Eventually, Meenal completed the race with a new national best for women. She thinks Indians have a talent for resilience. They can take a lot. It’s part of the South Asian package. Now 44 years old, Meenal’s wish is that somewhere on the way to her fifties or in her fifties, she should try the 52 day-Sri Chinmoy Self-Transcendence 3100 Mile Race.
(The author, Shyam G Menon, is a freelance journalist based in Mumbai. For more on Meenal, please click on this link: https://shyamgopan.com/2017/12/21/after-the-race-the-journey/)







